Keep enjoying life, keep moving forward, keep doing what you do... so what if you look bad? never care about your identity, never care if you're not winning, just move forward and give your very best every single day, as simple as that. You have to believe in yourself, even if you got embarrassed, even if you lost... keep moving forward and still believe in yourself, your time will come in just a matter of time, you just need to go all in and give everything you've got. Stop wasting time feeling bad for yourself, stop feeling guilty, stop feeling regretful, it's just an emotion. You can still make a very good comeback, you can still reclaim the power that you once lost... the power to believe in yourself. So stop wasting time giving too much energy for people, things and happenings that doesn't resonate with your values, you have to focus on getting better, conquer your fears and doubts and get on top as fast as you can.
Greatness is simply pushing. it is simply pushing, forget what you lost, forget what is not meant for you, forget the past and simply push. It's on you, you have to do everything in your power to become great. Never mind if you're getting tired or not getting anything... just keep pushing. It doesn't matter if you lost a million times, just keep pushing, if you can develop this perspective then you will become a beast, you will become unstoppable. If you can push now and totally ignore everything then you're already winning in life. Focus on what matters only and push yourself to get it. It doesn't matter if it will take very long to get it, just go and get it. You have what it takes to win, all you need to do is believe in yourself and stay committed to the process. Go and push now, never hold yourself, back, never think too much, just focus on the next push and the next one and the next one, make yourself relentless by having this powerful mindset.
They don't matter at all. All these people that laughs at you, mock you or judge you doesn't matter at all. They're all the same snowflakes that are not really invincible. Put them to pressure and they will crumble, they're not as tough as you, they're also weak and will lost their minds once tested by an adversity. You have no idea how powerful you will become if you will forget what people say, if you will not care about how they perceive you at all. You should feel free all the time, express yourself to the fullest and know where you're good at. Define your strengths and focus on it. Learn to develop the idea of not caring what people say but still being respectful, learn to ignore what is making you feel bad, learn to play the game of prioritizing your emotions before anybody's emotions. Put yourself on the pedestal, be greater than your situation, have that abundant mindset and never feel like a victim again. Avoid being sensitive and emotional, avoid being too soft and always develop a thick skin everyday by trying and not attaching yourself with the outcome.