Give yourself a chance to win, just for this year... work super hard and focus on your goals. Don't worry about failing, don't worry about not making it, just know how it feels to be great, know how it feels to ne giving your all. Don't worry because you can go back to your old life if you fail. But for now, leave your old life and try to create a new life. Create new habits, create new boundaries, create new discipline, create a new YOU. This is the time, don't worry because you have nothing to lose here, you have everything to gain, the good side of it is you will know how good you are and you will know what is your real potential.
If you're a bartender that has a regular job but you're dreaming of becoming a rockstar who has 3 playboy model girlfriends then why not chase it? You can go back being a bartender again if you fail, you really have nothing to lose here. You will only lose something if you didn't try, you lose your opportunity to go to the top. So while you still have some time... try working on something and give everything you've got, don't stop, don't rest, don't quit until you win. It's all about how bad do you want it, do you really want it or you just want it for the sake of having something to dream about? Let's be real, you can never get what you want if you're exerting a weak effort everyday, your energy must be the same everyday even if you feel bad, your output must be the same everyday, if it is 100 then it should be 100 or even 101, lesser than 100 is unforgivable.
The point here is... you can chase your dream big time, you can go all out without being afraid of failing. You can go back to your old life if you didn't make it. You still have a home, you still have a default. But don't ever let a chance of a lifetime slip away, you've got to make everything count, you've got to take risks and never be afraid of coming up short. This thing called life will only happen once, you can never make a reset once it's over so don't ever waste your precious time for stupid things that will never help you reach your full potential. Just keep trying and never stop, that's all I'm saying, never take your life for granted because you can become a star one day, you can become huge, you can become larger than life. It all depends on how you use your time, are you going to give it to some other people who will not even help you to grow at all? are you going to use it for nonsense entertainment that will only make you broke? or are you going to use it to chase greatness and success? don't be afraid to fail because you can go back to your old life. Start building a new life now, create new patterns, create new thoughts, rewire your brain, reprogram your brain for success.