There is nothing wrong being a failure, there is nothing wrong with doing it your way and following your own belief. There is nothing wrong being a rebel and just following your own intuition. You only have one life why not try everything you can? Life is not about winning or losing, it's about trying and doing it your way, it's about putting yourself on the best position to succeed. The more you fail the more you learn, there is nothing wrong about failing, you will become mentally tougher, you will become more experienced. You will become a different person, you will become a different animal, a different beast that doesn't feel anything about defeat anymore, you are here to win and you just knew that it will happen one day in just a matter of time. Failing is all part of your life, if you're not failing now you will still fail in the future, don't be afraid of it, people who doesn't want to fail are weak. Look at some fighters who were undefeated before, they feel so low after tasting their first defeat. It's because they haven't felt that pain before. You will only become tougher and stronger every time you incorporate failing into your life. Don't ever think that you can bail yourself out from failure, you will experience it in the future even if you're not experiencing it now.
Keep pushing forward every time you fail, don't be scared to try again, don't be scared to fail again. You have to show the universe that you want it so bad or else you will never have a break through, you have to keep pushing no matter what, even if you're not making results. It is what it is, it's really going to get hard, it's really tough but you have to make yourself believe that you can still do it. No matter what is your age, no matter what skills you have or what cards you hold... you still need to believe, still try and give yourself a chance to succeed. Failing is normal, it will never make you bad, it doesn't mean you don't have it, you just need more time to achieve, you just need to work harder. So keep pushing, keep grinding, always dare to sacrifice, always dare to move further.
One day you will become a winner too, one day all of your works will be recognized, one day all of your efforts will be rewarded. So never get sick and tired of trying, always be patient, always believe in yourself and always work hard every single day. One day the universe will hear you because you are legit, you are real, you're not playing around, you are here for a business.... you are here to realized all of your dreams.