YOU CAN NEVER FIND PEACE

It is what it is, your mind will always be penetrated by negativity, it's up to you if you will dwell on it or not. You can never find peace everyday, something will always bother you, something will always make you feel bad. But that doesn't mean that you can never defeat negativity, you can still do something about it, you can still have a happy life despite of being surrounded by negativity. No matter how much you meditate or look for something to calm your mind... something will still bother it in the future, do you think monks really find peace forever? of course not, if they did then how come they are still meditating everyday? There is no permanent peace, life is a work, life is a battle, it's a process. It all depends on how you handle the daily war. 

Accept that the world is full of chaos and your life will become easier, accept that there will be people who will treat you not nice but it's all part of life. If the world is perfect then it will become very boring, if the world is so organized the life will have no spice at all, there will be no more challenges. So you have to make yourself strong instead and learn how to fight back, learn how to be mindful when needed and learn to embrace chaos when needed. Just always keep your cool, life is really like that, it's hard, it's not perfect but you can always survive, you can always live and you can make your life a little bit better. It all depends on how you think and how you see things. 

Life is really full of randomness, full of disrespectful people, full of resistance and challenges. But you should never let anger control you, it's your duty to find the beauty of everything. Because life is not all about negativity at all, you can find better things if you will open your eyes and mind. The reason why you're always hating your life is because you want it to become perfect. You want a perfect body, perfect neighborhood, perfect job, perfect partner, perfect lifestyle, perfect everything. You can't appreciate everything around you. Life can become much easier if you will focus on what you want, if you will just see the beauty of ugliness. Appreciate where you are and what you have and you will never feel worried again. 

No matter how much little you have, no matter how ugly your life seems to be... you are still alive, you can still become happy. You can become happy now if you will choose to. Just think about happy thoughts and there you go... happy again. A peaceful and perfect life doesn't exist. There will always be a war inside of your head but you can always tame those destructive thoughts by staying calm and mindful, just be happy that you're still alive and that's enough, just be happy that you're still experiencing life. Never let any small things bother you, never let petty things make you feel bad, you're always in control of your life. Just live it and be open to possibilities that everything will become much better.