You're wondering where is your energy going but the real answer to that is you're not using it. If you're not using your energy you will have less energy, you will become depleted. If you will just become a doer then you will become stronger than before. You feel weak because you're doing less, you're scrolling on social media like a maniac, you're not using your mind and body instead you are being controlled like a zombie that is why you feel so weak and small.
EACH DISCIPLINE
Each discipline, each fast action, being decisive and doing it early... it will fuel your willpower, it will make you better, it will give you more energy and strength to achieve wonderful things in life. Take discipline seriously and you will feel disgusted of your old self, you will feel ashamed that you live like a weak clown for how many years. Take discipline seriously and you will be taken seriously be the universe, you will get what you want and need, you will be in full control of your life. The question is are you going to move despite of feeling bad? that is what separates the greats from the losers, the greats will keep pushing forward no matter what, they will never quit, they will never act like they are entitled of something, they will work hard for it, they will take it one second at a time and never give up, they will keep pushing until the end, they will do whatever it takes to get to the next level. Remember that each discipline, every time you force yourself to move even if you don't like it.. you are getting better and stronger, you are leveling up and not being weak anymore. So just do it, take matters into your own hands and give everything you've got. The time is now, keep pushing forward no matter what and do everything to become a winner in life.
INSANE USAGE OF WILLPOWER
This is not about being successful, this is not about being a winner, this is about insane usage of willpower. You do it because you want to feel how strong you are, you do more because you don't want to feel weak anymore, you want to become empty because you give your all not feeling drained because you procrastinate a lot. Be fast, just do it, just start and you will be amazed at how far did you went through, you will be amazed with your strength. Feeling strong is not about feeling good, it's about doing it despite of feeling tired, exhausted and defeated. It's about pushing through no matter what, that is what real strength is all about. Your willpower will never run out if you keep on suing it, never quit and that's it, never stop and that's it. It's only just a matter of time before you make something click, it's only just a matter of time before you win, so keep going and never give up, the world is yours.